Happy 3rd Anniversary!!

The moment you hope it's raining and thundering outside to fit your mood and it's only the recycling truck. It has been a long week and what seems like an even longer three years. 

Three years ago today I was supposed to walk down the aisle in my gown looking like the Princess Scott had decided I was to be into his waiting arms with Betsy officiating. Scott put this entire plan together. He made most of the decisions and I went along. How often do I have to say in my head, "I was right! We should have just gotten married on the beach in Hawaii." It doesn't change anything because that didn't happen. 

What really happened was my wonderful friend went to Lynne's house in MN. Susan and Betsy flew there to help take care of me in my fragile state. Everybody had gone to bed and Betsy took my rings in her hand and said, "I bless this union."  Then she held me while I sobbed in that gut wrenching nothing will ever be right cry. We did lots of things over the weekend and surprisingly I remember most of them. We spent the night at the casino for need of A/C. 

I had gone up to our rooms and somehow BA ended up there. She was a quiet voice of comfort. She pulled out a CD of photos from our trip in October where the gang got to meet Scott and asked if I was ready to see the pictures I'd never seen. She just let me cry my healing tears. 

We have talked at least once a week over the last three years. She always knew when to check up on me. I did the same for her. I can't help but think I forgot to call her last Wednesday. She would have called me today. She has been my closest friend and now she's gone. We have done so much together and I treasure every moment we spent together; Disneyland, Minnesota, DisneyWorld, Las Vegas, San Antonio, Denver...

Today I hope she is with Scott telling him she blessed our union and toasting with a glass of champagne. Today I will wear my rings for the day and treasure two lives ended too soon. Surround me with your light and love, guide me, protect me, show me the way. I love you Scott and Betsy. You both made my life better for having been in it. I will see you when it's my time but I know I still have a lot if life to live and others to love. I have to be here for my most important gift, Hannah. I want to see her graduate, go to college, graduate and become a grandma someday. I have more love to give.