Music and Lyrics

Today was a peaceful day. I felt surrounded again all day long. Sometimes I think the feelings are very overpowering and I tune them out. Today it was very helpful. Almost as if something happened that was pleasing to him. It was like I had said to God and Scott I needed some kind of reward for enduring all of this and taking care of things and here you go. I am so very grateful for the pleasure of the reward of today. I take nothing for granted.

I got things done. One of my new patients that has been there for about a week told me, along with his wife and my favorite repeat offender patient that I was great and could really help. That made me feel so good. His wife also told me there was not any chance I could be a Speech Therapist for almost 20 years because I only looked as if I was 30 myself. Boy did they boost my ego. She also asked me how I lost my husband and I was able to stand there with only my eyes tearing up but they were manageable. Now off and on I wanted to cry the rest of the afternoon but whenever I was near a radio the music spoke to me in volumes. Today was a serenade kind of day.

I wish I could explain it more in depth to each of you reading this. I can't even portray the powerful energy that surrounds me. The list of music and variety of artists that played today was too many that I stopped trying to track it after five songs on my way to work. The song that stuck was "My Valentine" by Martina McBride because it was new to the songs he has been sending my way. It was one of the first songs we listened to together and he always commented on how I new all of the words. I will always be his heart.

Now for a great rest tonight that will bring on another peaceful day! I don't think I'm asking for too much, since I can't have what I really want I will take the light and love that is given to me each day. Keep saying prayers for me. I'm not through all of this yet but I'm trying.