Lifehouse

"So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are
I’m standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here"


I'm not in a good place. I don't know if I can make it. I cried all the way home listening to this music, once again not my choice (thanks Scott!). I put myself to bed and I'm only up because Hannah came home from Church CCE. I was asked today what I'm going to do Monday. I know what I want to do but that would just surround me with a bunch of people so I won't say it. I want those feelings a being okay. I want to be good but I will never be alright. I'm not where I think I'm supposed to be and I'm having trouble trusting myself right now. I want to be that person who can be good in a conversation all the time without thinking of Scott in every sentence. Why does it have to be with just one person? Why can't I have a real life again?

I have no rational thoughts except I'M DONE for today! I'm retreating to my Sleeping Beauty persona! I miss my Prince Buzz to awaken me. I need to understand where I should be because I'm not trying again tonight. Tomorrow is another day!